Thursday, May 15, 2008

Writer's Block

It has been ages since I have last written and that is simply because of my writer's block and numerous other things that have been occuring in my life.

I find myself suddenly at an odd turning point in my life where I finally realize how easy it is to be hurt and how fickle love really is. I never thought I'd be one to fall for another over such a long distance and yet I had and no, it wasn't one of those situations where I knew her for a short time and then "Bam!" No, not at all. I knew her for almost years before we even spouted out our feelings for one another and now...I wonder if all such was a lie.

We have not been quite talkative with one another nor have been affectionate with one another in some time. There was someone else - Is someone else, I believe. I wonder if she's been playing me the fool all along or not but perhaps it is just a silly man's worries. I suppose we shall see when the time comes. For now I'll set aside this money I've been saving for a trip there and consider it before ever fulfilling that dream. I do not want to arrive and have my heart shattered after all.